The saga continues...

more odd voicemails left on my number.

resolution

I got an electric guitar last week. My first one. A beautiful, absolutely amazing, absolutely perfect black Fender Stratocaster. Like everything else in my life, I feel like I absolutely, have done nothing in my life to deserve it. But like everything else in my life, I will do everything I possibly can to convince myself otherwise. I resolve to respect and honour and cherish everything I am given the opportunity to do, because if I don't, then I definitely do not deserve to be doing it.

Come back, DT!

I've never been one for major holidays. As someone who has spent pretty much his entire life trying to avoid being clumped into a specific type of person, and who doesn't really want to be associated with his entire race (or the stereotype of it), major holidays kind of feel like that to me. That doesn't really make sense. What I really mean is that I really, really like avoiding the norm. I don't want to be easily defined. I'd be a hipster if I did anything more than think like one. I'd be an engineer if I didn't do art. I'd be an artist if I wasn't in engineering school. I'd be a writer or a musician if I actually had the time or drive to focus on honing that (those) craft(s). I guess that kind of makes me a non-committal, endlessly distracted kind of person who's good at a few things but never great at anything. But I really don't want to be that either.

Anyway, that's not really the point.

I avoid major holidays because to me, it's just a day that everyone does the same thing together. If everyone else is doing it, I don't wanna. It's the same reason why I'll automatically disagree or find another side to any widely-held opinion (which, I admit, is mostly when my father tells me I should or shouldn't do something).

Everyone celebrated new year's tonight. I spent it in an elevator, tired and getting home from a trip out west. I knew about a few different happenings, but didn't act on any of them. I avoided facebook and twitter because I know what every single tweetpost is going to be about, for at least the next 18 hours. Instead, I played some music by myself and tried not to think of all my friends having fun somewhere in the company of their other, cooler, closer, more genuine friends.

In reality, I don't avoid holidays because I don't want to be associated with the endless number of people who all celebrate it. I avoid them because I've never been good at making or being friends, and any time a large group of people get together to do something just makes me feel left out. I've always felt like all my friends are better friends with someone else, and holidays do nothing to disprove that. Well, here's to another year.

RIP Dessert Tickets

Signing off,

c